Poems and reflections
Poetry is a catharsis of emotions...a venting...of anger, hurt, love, longing, sorrow, helplessness, elation, sympathy, sadness... To me, writing is a compulsion, driven by the demons of the deep soul. My best writing is inevitably inspired and I have found the greatest inspiration during my most troubled times. Most of these poems here were written many moons ago.
Saturday, 6 April 2013
Requiem for my grandfather
Wednesday, 18 August 2010
Requiem for Sib: The Greatest Gift
Amidst all the trials and troubles that abound,
I asked the Lord, who is my Creator, "Why am I forsaken, God?
Alone, with no one to hold close?
Who shall I turn to when all has come undone?"
And the Lord, who is my Guardian, gathering me in His warm embrace said -
"My dearest child, We have not abandoned thee;
For, lo! We have given unto thee Our most treasured gift."
"It is he who shall carry you above all the worries of this world,
And it is he who shall give you comfort with the gentleness of his eyes.
His swiftness shall lend you wings to go far beyond,
And his back bear for you the greatest of joys;
His strength shall lend you courage in the face of enemies,
And his presence invigorate you and imbue confidence in the face of fear;
He shall be a source of unending inspiration,
And love you will know and companionship, in his being,
For he will be your staunchest ally and your unfailing friend;
His will be the visage that will remind you of the beauty of Our world,
And of Our unfailing affection for you."
So I asked unto Him who is my Keeper and Creator,
"Who is this wondrous being, my Lord?"
And He said unto me - "My dearest child, lo!
We have given unto thee the gift of the most beloved of all Our creatures,
We have bequeathed thee the Horse,
Sibelius, who shall be your friend and brother,
From now to eternity,
And through him all the world shall be yours."
But come suddenly, the Lord forsake me.
On a day as ordinary, with no warning,
God broke his promise of eternal love,
God broke his promise of eternal love.
Thursday, 23 July 2009
The more times passes
The more things remain unchanged
The worse the hurt festers
More miserable the loneliness
I stand alone
A bare tree in a ravaged desert plain
Fleeting images of rain raising hope
But in the end only mirages remain
Many ask why
I ask why not?
For in what way have the angels kept
The love in this heart alive?
When the angels come to call, I will have their blood
For I know not their love
Nor do I know their comradeship
All that is faced is their pun
Intended
Too many moons have been spent in wait
Too many tests endured
This spirit, this spark saved in vain hope
For a brighter day, for true love
No more
There shall be only blood now
There shall be none else but blood
Rivers of blood shall flow
From this wounded heart
Rivers of blood shall flow
To kill, to maim, to drown and banish
To extinguish into nothingness
And smother this emptiness of my soul
Monday, 31 March 2008
Lady Elusive
In the labyrinthine corridors of life
As we wander in hope of a distant and obscure prize
It is seldom known what awaits around the next corner
Like the day when I first laid eyes upon her
An image of the most immaculate beauty
Standing there in a dress of alluring red
Her hair down to her shoulders
Her eyes mesmerizing, her smile tantalizing
My sight lingered but only for a moment
For I dared not to look long upon her
For, her visage was seductive like the woods
Mysterious, yet beckoning
Out there I could be lost forever…….
And then, as suddenly as I saw her,
She was gone !
Gone ! Before my mind could even imprint her image
…….she was gone !
Oh! How I longed to see her again!
She was like a rare flash of illumination
In this seemingly interminable dreariness
of human animation
How I longed to see her again !
As my mind contemplated on the possibility
My heart hoped in desperate ardour.
The seasons changed many times since
And the rains have washed away much
Memories of the past remain
But as fleeting shadows of time
Memories of things lost remain
Aching black holes in the heart
Life is a struggle for triumphant survival
Caught in an unchanging whirlpool of dull routine
I struggle with the cold ruthlessness of
societal demands
I fight to be strong, oblivious to all else
I fight to live like I want to, to be myself.
Then like a bolt from the blue skies I see her again
Face to face we meet!
The flutter of those exquisite eyelashes
Those lips, so delicately pried could be none else’s
Yes! It was really her!
My mind though clouded by the cobwebs of time
Had never forgotten the vision of her fair countenance
Her eyes flared up
Like dry leaves afire
For my eyes would not turn away
She stood there, her lips quivering
Her cheeks changing color
And in that one long instant
As we looked at each other
It felt as though the world was mine
Then with the blissful blink of an eye
She was gone……!
Suddenly she was nowhere to be seen !
Obliterated from my view !
As though purged of existence !
I looked around in disbelief and desperation
I wandered about trying in vain to find her
To hear her voice….to feel her
But she was nowhere to be found.